I am hard at work at my first book Battered Mind.. I wanted to share my excerpts with you all and I am hoping to get it all out by late August or September 2013.
Thoughts rush in my head, overwhelming me over and over,
consuming all of what is left of my spirit..
I hear the voices again.. driving me mad…
Each time even more stronger than the last time… and pulling me further into the dark…but it is in the darkness that I break down, remembering the brutal torture you have placed me in again, you see I am no longer sane, I have lost all my senses and what remains of me is but a battered mind that has lost touch with reality.. .
Sadie Martin Carlyle..
Battered Mind Chapter 1
Sadie Carlyle awoke in a state of despair when she finally opened her eyes, and noticed that she was lying in what appeared to be a large hospital bed. She immediately began screaming very loudly. Sadie was so out of control that a strong sedative was required to calm her down. Her long red hair looked so dry, since it appeared as if she had not had it properly washed it for days. It was not to long once the sedative took immediate effect. Then soon after that her greenish eyes began to close again. As the nurse came to place a soft pillow under her neck, you could see that her skin looked even paler than normal.
After all this had been an intense few days for Sadie. This whole mess made her more emotional and you could easily see that it was taking it’s toll when you saw all the puffiness in her swollen eyes from all of the crying. It was so hard to believe that Sadie was once a very attractive green eyed red head that captivated a room with her profound beauty. After a few minutes the nurse noticed that Sadie was bleeding from her nose. Soon after this happened the doctor was immediately paged.
In the meantime Sadie still asleep began to let her mind get whisked away.
“Here he comes again screaming at me always terrifying me why can’t he see that he is hurting me!”
“Mrs. Carlyle , Mrs. Carlyle!” called a man in a dark suit. Suddenly, Sadie was no longer in the hospital bed. She was in a courtroom. Her heart was racing and she appeared very agitated and confused. However, she decided to take a deep breath to calm her nerves. As always once again her thoughts run away with her:
“Sadness is approaching it feels very dark- I feel it pulling me closer to the end of a cliff and then I am drowning!”
Can you please answer the question now, said the impatient District Attorney. As he paced back and forth you could hear the silence in the packed room. She tried to stay focus and not let her thoughts run away with her again. Well, Ms. Carlyle, he stated once more. Sadie took a deep breath and then said, “Yes I am so sorry Mr. Mason”, she began to say said in a rather soft and apologetic tone.
“ Please forgive me, again” she said. “ You see I am rather nervous being up here and talking about such a traumatic event and I was letting my nerves run away with me, Do
you mind repeating the question? He paused and then once again asked, “ What happened on the night of May 27, 2010?” “Now I hope that was clear enough for you!” he added in a more sarcastic tone. Charles Mason had been a District Attorney for the State of North Carolina for 16 years now and he was known to win all of his cases. The man had been divorced three times and finally said that he just was not going to let a
woman bury him, even if it meant he end up alone. However, he was fair in matters of the law and just wanted to get to the truth. “ Well, on the day you are referring to!” Sadie
continued and then after a brief pause then blurted out “ I killed my husband!” As she said that, the court room went into a big uproar.
This is when the presiding Judge Vicente Mikos knocked on his gavel and asked everyone to quiet down. “ Please!”, Silence he urged. “ Now, please continue Ms. Carlyle.” Again, She began to let her thoughts get away from her again.
“A Voice cries out in the night, for someone to hear its plea.. As the wind begins to fade the sound, there you are in between, ready to comfort.. or destroy me?” “I want to break free of you!”
“Look Mr. Mason everyone here is going to see that my husband Dante Lucas Carlyle was a monster and an abuser”. She continued by adding, “ I did what I had to do to protect my daughter and myself , because if I had not shot him he would of come after both of us.”
Sadie began to shake as she finished her testimony. You could hear the whispers in the
crowd of people which included both Sadie’s parents as well as Dante’s.
“Silence! Silence! everyone”, said Judge Mikos once again. he then continued. “Now I must remind everyone to keep their composure throughout the trial and if there are
those that do not want to follow the rules you will be escorted out!” Just as he got
done with the stern warning there was a another voice who called upon the judge.
“Your honor!” said the slender woman, “I ask that there be a short recess so that I can
speak with my client.” “Alright we will all meet back here at 2:00 p.m”, urged the judge.
“This will allow most of us to go to lunch and be ready to continue”, he continued.
“However, he added I must remind the jury to be mindful of this case and
your obligations as jurors”. As the people walked out of the courtroom, the slender attorney directed her attention to her client. As she approached Sadie, Ms. Hamilton’s dark brown eyes, which matched her dark brown hair appeared to get darker as she got closer to her. Many thoughts ran thru Miranda’s head, and she tried to compose her voice tone. “ Okay now Ms. Carlyle do you have any thing to say for yourself?” ,Miranda awaited patiently for an answer. However, Sadie apparently appeared to be in another frame of mine, and she seemed to be deliberately taking her time in answering her. It was about a few minutes later, that Sadie finally felt like indulging Ms. Hamilton and in a rather stern tone said, “ Look you are suppose to be on my side, so just let the evidence speak for itself!” and then just like that got up and walked out of the room. This type of attitude left a very bad taste in Miranda’s mouth and she decided for the time being to keep her frustrations to herself. However, that did not mean she had good thoughts of Sadie.
“ Oh I am so sick of this woman! thought Miranda as she gathered her brief case. This type of behavior that was coming from her client was unacceptable and was now regretting being her defense lawyer. You see Miranda Hamilton was approached by Sadie’s parents because they knew she was one of the best criminal defense lawyers in Atlanta Georgia, were Sadie’s father had recruited her since he was also in that same
field and wanted to make sure his daughter was well represented and were willing to pay whatever it took to protect her. As Miranda collected her briefcase and composed herself, District Attorney Charles Mason came in and gave her this small grin. She went right passed him and tried not to pay him any attention. Then he added “ Don’t let the door hit you on the way out!” He could hear Miranda trying not to lose her composure. One of the main reasons that Mr. Mason acted in such a way is because he knew that there was more to this case. There were more than a few things that just did not add up. As stated earlier Charles Mason, believed in getting to the truth of what really occurred on the night of May 29, 2010. “ I am sure that there are things that Ms. Hamilton’s client is not saying and I am going to break this case and her”. He said with a big smirk on his face. In another closed room, Sadie sat in one corner of the room locked deep in her thoughts.”
“ Look Dante I want you to stop this, I cannot continue to be hurt by you. I will not allow you to hurt me!”“ Hurt you, Sadie why would I do that, to you. “ I love you!” “ Sadie! Sadie!” called a familiar voice from the room. It was her father’s voice. He went into the room and embraced her. “ Oh hunny you have been thru so much and soon everyone will know what a horrible monster that Dante was. Sadie appeared not at all there as her father was speaking to her. But somehow found a way to speak to him. “ Yes I just want all this to be over so I can resume my life with my baby girl. “ Oh I can’t wait to be with her, she said. Shhh!, there there whispered Mr. Martin, it will all be alright and Keyla is with your mother so there is no need to worry darlin he said as he comforted her. Mr. Martin noticed that his daughterhad barely eaten her food. “ Now sweetheart I know this is a very tough thing you are dealing with right now, however you are not going to do yourself any favors by fainting in court because your not eating, he stated in a more stern voice.
“Please go away now, I really don’t want to hurt you, but I will”… Then Sadie’s nose began to bleed heavily. “ Oh no yelled her father.. Someone call “ 911 my daughter is bleeding..
“Sadie please talk to me how you are feeling ” please talk to me .. “No! Dante I am done talking with you!”. “ I am tired of this game we keep playing and I am not doing this any longer!”
“ Sadie darlin everything is going to be okay,“ said a very distraught Jackson Martin. As the ambulance arrived they used a stretcher to take her out. The judge asked everyone to come into the court room so that he could make his announcement. As everyone came in and sat down , everyone waited for Judge Mikos to speak. “ I wanted to let everyone know that Mrs. Carlyle had to be rushed to the hospital emergency room and we are not sure, how long she will be there or what is her prognosis as of yet and due to these latest events we are not clear on the day or time we will be back in court.
However, the jury will be sequestered in a nearby hotel until further notice. He then added, “ Again, we appreciate your time and dedication to this case and that will be all. As he left the court room, one person that was grinning all the way was Miranda Hamilton. She was smiling from ear to ear as she glared into Charles Mason’s greenish eyes. “ Well Counselor she added with a bit a sassiness in her voice “ Looks like the ball is in my court now”. As she strutted out, he gave her a stern warning, Careful Ms. Hamilton, don’t forget I never lose” As he said this Miranda pretended to ignore his comment and continued on her way.